My Female Perception

And definitely the thing I cannot stand the most from a guy is repetitious stupidity over a simple thing, yet boasting off too much with the biggest ignorance to learn from mistakes, blindly make himself busy with irrelevant stuff other than his real priority but then disastrous paper work on his own plus with the greatest laziness & the biggest whining / complaining about doing a task. This kind of guy is such a disgrace to male existence, the worst sissy of all existence.

 

Geez...seriously, what kind of guy are these guys,useless, definitly does not show any trait of being a gentleman at all!. Kasi malu kaum laki sajak..u  better cut off ur d%$#! I think even sissy / gay people have better work performance, better working ethics, fun-NER working teammates than those i wud say hyenna or coyote kind of guy who tend to pushing around responsibilities, lazy, cunning, and yet only "show' their diligence on doing stuff not neccessary then boast about how "hardworking" they are.

 

Now...what turns a girl feeling easy breezy & comfortable & confident working wit a guy who is truly hardworking proven by his work quality and yet being very humble about it. U can just ask him anything and he'll swiftly answer u in a very relaxed mood and if he doesn't know the answer then he's just admit it and discuss it together, no need to loudly boast about anything.

That's the kind that looks like real superhero at work to me.

When a girl cries.

When a girl cries, it doesn't mean she is weak. The tear drops represents what has been kept inside pouring out off her chest. That's how it feels like...relief...Then only a girl can really pick herself up, re-assemble her mind, re-construct her what-to-do-next, get back to her senses, then become whole again. So, my conclusion is a girl can be stronger after crying...again, just saying that..hehe..

MUSIC

Most times when i listen to certain song or music, it can always keep me feeling drifted or floating in high clouds as i am being enchanted or like i'm on the sweetest drug that i get addicted to.

I can listen to the song for so many times, again and over again continuously at a long period untill people at my surrounding get bored to listen i hum the same tune. I would do that until i can master every corner, every swing, every pitch of the singing. Most times i wish i can play instruments of those beautiful sounds. The catchy piano tinklings, the rugged guitar / bass (whatever it is that's in the same family) but sadly i dont have previleges learning all those instruments. I wish i could. When i'm possesed by the song, it almost feels like i'm taken to another imaginary world. (Now that i wrote that sentence i feel like my mental is insanely loose!..haha)

ChemiCaL Romancee..

It takes two to tango...without one, it definitely won't happen..i wrote that on my fb wall.
I think human is the most complicated creation God has ever made. We have feelings, emotions, brains and stuff and it's up to the individual to mould all those things into control or maybe lose control while controlling it..(what the heck am i saying..hahaha).

For love, some believe in finding /waiting for the right person. Some also believe in initiating the first move. Well, so far I only heard of those theories. Personally for me, i believe for every person, there is certain type that they can only respond to. Not everyone has the same type of interest. Depends on what type..maybe it's the character, the smell, the age, or combination of all endless list!

But sometimes, there is something in there that we can't really see or understand but yet feels so intriguing. Sometimes a person can be sooo sweet, gentle and caring towards us but yet why is our heart so reluctant to open up? Sometimes a person can be born with such perfect shape, handsome/beautiful face but yet sometimes certain people can just shrug 'em off saying...naaah..(infidelity due to lust is another different topic okayy)

Sometimes you can like a guy and coincidentally the guy kinda like u too, and he's sweet and caring too but then when he tries to get closer, all of a sudden you freak out!..haha..ever experience that? And sometimes, the guy doesnt even look that hot, not even caring but then again when u kiss, the vibe is so right like the world feels like a whole new life ..Also sometimes, such a hot, tall handsome guy coming out of nowhere suddenly falls high over heels for u, anxious to have you, but adamantly all u think of him is he's a monster psycho?..hehe..I think dat's why sometimes we see couples quarrel 24/7 like heck of a riot but yet still sticking together. Because there's some attractions that each doesn't realize tying them down with each other I guess...hehe..pandai2 jak.. Anyway, really this is something i can never really understand the formula actually. But having writing this, I manage to frame certain memories, wonders and thoughts that I hope I can nicely mould into something..and control while moulding it...again........-the end-

('',) LOST

he's so guilty of what she has become
she's wondering how or when she has changed but they both know the reasons why
now she's wondering does he really love her for love or whether it's just because he's trying so hard to save the relationship out of guilt?
he said it's sad & painful just to watch her changed, ironically she feels numb in the present cuz the past was too painful enough to bear.

Just saying..

All this while has been trying so hard to change a person just to find that eventually i'm the one who hv changed. Beauty of the past is that it makes a person's life seems more sweeter & better despite how painful the past was.

Perfect Sinner vs Perfect Lady(ies)

You with the perfect gesture that everyone think a lady should have.
I wonder why is it your heart is just as ugly as a mean coyote.
You with the soft figure, I just can't imagine why isn't there any softness in you heart.
You, the one I still insist to respect, i just don't understand why is there stil hate
..
You're the one with more wisdom here, this is the first time ever I see nose & chin tilted the highest
Have you really been wise or arrogant all this while?
Cause all this while I have only known great people bow down even more when they are the wisest...
You with your big mouth, so good with words that pierce through anything.

Just thought that the baptism would bring out a whole new you, but maybe it wasn't strong enough..
And I thought that the marriage or a fiance too would dilute your poisonous mouth a little bit,
But nah..i think it's the same..or did you fake it when you're in front of them?
We all go to the same church, but i wonder why your heart is so darkest blue?

Am i really that bad? that worst?
Cause even when i stay stil their anger shoots flames of fire
What else to compare when there's something catastrophic
Maybe I am a devil cause they hate me that much
But isn't every human bound to make mistake?
Well then I guess I'm the perfect sinner

You know i like sport but suddenly u said it's not your thing anymore?
While I'm stil eager for it, straightaway u say u'r a retiree?
So what you're trying to say is that you're so mature your habit change so fast
Yeah, that's your very2 good mindset that you should keep up
I guess that's why people always see you're way older than your age..(hahaha)

I wonder how can anyone can ever be happy being like that, living that, thinking like that.
I hope one day things will turn out differently to you.