2 days ago my lil brother came for a short visit to Bintulu before he takes off to Peninsular for a work course. For a short visit, i really had to fully utilize all the time once i'm off from work to bring him jalan2 around this quiet small city. It was tiring but worth it spending time for family..n i bought stuff for parents too & glad to know they are happy to receive it. It's a simple satisfaction..('',)..
Well, the rambling is..work,work,work..it's not that it requires super Hercules strength but the pressure of managing it..acquiring it..satisfaying it's perfection when things are beyond my control - that really cracks my head. N psstt..i dont wanna go to the particulars of the work here cuz i prefer "listening ears", some friends who are coincidently available at the moment who can respond back n respect its confidentiality...muah2 to all u guys! (p/s: to friends at kampong..mish2 u guys more! u know who u are..)The same also applies to my personal stuff..hehehe..
For that hectic minds filled with works+personal thoughts, humid+hot weather made it worse. And thank you dear God for giving the rain in the end...there's something about rain that gives me comfort deep down in the small hole of this heart. Maybe the sounds?..the cool feeling?..the flasback of comforts of whole family gather around in one house?...or how it makes the sky looks calm n peaceful? for sure it feels like God is saying to me, "hey there..calm down...everything is gonna be alright." And for for yesterday & today, i felt blessed for the rain as it came at a perfect time to soothe me off..
And for this encountering hardship, hardship of the past, working, and staying all by myself, faraway from family & friends...I thank this life for making me stronger..(even tho i resent it at first)..hehe..& yes..to all those hypocrites or blood sucker or whatever lah, also who enjoy to criticize or making people down especially when u dont even know them well enough, whether you are serba serbi perfect or not..sik tawuk la pa mok mdh but what goes around comes around. And yeah..my heart goes strongly for all the underdogs who hv tried hard&well, not lazy ones or taking the easy way out la ok. hang on there..don't you give up!
Well, the rambling is..work,work,work..it's not that it requires super Hercules strength but the pressure of managing it..acquiring it..satisfaying it's perfection when things are beyond my control - that really cracks my head. N psstt..i dont wanna go to the particulars of the work here cuz i prefer "listening ears", some friends who are coincidently available at the moment who can respond back n respect its confidentiality...muah2 to all u guys! (p/s: to friends at kampong..mish2 u guys more! u know who u are..)The same also applies to my personal stuff..hehehe..
For that hectic minds filled with works+personal thoughts, humid+hot weather made it worse. And thank you dear God for giving the rain in the end...there's something about rain that gives me comfort deep down in the small hole of this heart. Maybe the sounds?..the cool feeling?..the flasback of comforts of whole family gather around in one house?...or how it makes the sky looks calm n peaceful? for sure it feels like God is saying to me, "hey there..calm down...everything is gonna be alright." And for for yesterday & today, i felt blessed for the rain as it came at a perfect time to soothe me off..
And for this encountering hardship, hardship of the past, working, and staying all by myself, faraway from family & friends...I thank this life for making me stronger..(even tho i resent it at first)..hehe..& yes..to all those hypocrites or blood sucker or whatever lah, also who enjoy to criticize or making people down especially when u dont even know them well enough, whether you are serba serbi perfect or not..sik tawuk la pa mok mdh but what goes around comes around. And yeah..my heart goes strongly for all the underdogs who hv tried hard&well, not lazy ones or taking the easy way out la ok. hang on there..don't you give up!
